Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Not to long ago I decided that it would be a good time to fast and pray for help with Dan's job searching. This got me thinking. My fast prayer went something like this, "Heavenly Father, please help Dan find a job, and if he doesn't find a job please help us be okay with this and realize that everything will be in Your time." So here is where I got to thinking. Dan knew I was fasting and asked me afterward if I had any thoughts or impressions on where we should go. Well, that isn't what I asked for. In fact, I didn't ask a question at all. Here's the thing I think Heavenly Father is okay with bling faith (notice, I did not and will not say that it's what He prefers). This is kind of the stage that I'm at. I'm a blind faith person. If Heavenly Father says "x" then okay, it's "x"....no questions asked, that's how it is because that's how it is. However, do I really think that that makes Heavenly Father happy? I'm sure He's glad that people like me are willing to believe, but really...is that what He wants? Maybe? Anyway, I then got to thinking that Heavenly Father is a God of knowledge. He wants His children to know things. If He tells us something I'm sure He is more than pleased when we find out the how and why and whatnots about everything. Do I think that there are some questions that we will have to wait to find out the answers to? Yes. Do I think that we should ask and find out? Yes. So I guess my question comes in this form. When (and I could be wrong on my scripture story here) Shadrac, Mesach, and Abednigo (don't mind the spelling) were going to be thrown in a fire they prayed to God that he would deliever them, but then they said, "But if not" that's okay (not in those words, but work with me here). So I've been striving for the "but if not" philosophy. However, is this a blind faith? God wants us to know things, and He also wants us to accept...soo....this is where I just don't get it. How do you do both? I'm pretty sure the answer is quite obvious, and I'm pretty sure that I should know the answer to this, however it has managed to elude me for a good 25 years. Any suggestions? Thoughts? Answers?