Sunday, April 12, 2015
Well, conference happened (like it does every April and October) and I think it was the very first talk that talked about fasting. President Eyring mentioned a 24hr fast. And I guess I've heard that before, but it was always two meals in my mind, and really, it was basically just breakfast when it was put into practice.
Last night Scott reminded me it was Fast Sunday today while at Grandpa Brad's 80th birthday party. I appreciated the reminder and started fasting. It was quite different for me. I've never started the day before, I've never gone 24 hours, and it was difficult because the girls had their dance recital (hopefully that will be another post...but...just in case it isn't, they did awesome and it was fun to watch) that night and wanted to go to dinner after to celebrate. None of the kids liked my idea of starting their fasts then. There was weeping and tears, and I let dad take over...I mean, my oldest is 9 so it's not like I expect them to last the whole 24 hours, but I got excited and probably went a little overboard :) Dan took them to Arby's but made them eat it at home so I didn't have to be around it.
Anyway, to make a long story even longer this morning I really wanted my fast to mean something. So while I was praying about it in the shower (don't judge me...shower time is an excellent prayer time) I got the thought to ask Dan for a blessing. After the shower I felt kind of weird asking, but he readily agreed to give me one. I married a wonderful man. I'm so thankful to have a worthy priesthood holder in my home.
The blessing was a confirmation to me that Heavenly Father knows me, knows what is going on in my thoughts, and wants me to be the best I can be. Something interesting to me in the blessing was that I need to focus on the why of things and the hows and the whats will take care of themselves. That got me thinking and I realized I am losing sight of the big picture and going through the motions when really I need to be strengthening my testimony of the end goals in life. I need to focus on why I chose to be a wife and mother, why I'm a member of this church, why I want to gain a more personal relationship with my Father in Heaven.
Anyway, it was really powerful and an answer to a prayer, so I thought I'd write it down so I didn't forget this special experience I had.
I definitely experienced some tender mercies today.