Friday, November 28, 2008

Crying is supposed to be therapeudic

I must admit that I did break down a little bit today and for the first time since Dan left I felt truly alone. My mom and dad came up to spend Thanksgiving with me, and when they left all reserve fled and the tears started to fall...I was alone. Never mind the fact that I have three kids. It was the first time that I seriously considered going home early and just waiting for Dan to join me in Utah. Luckily, I called Dan and cried a bit on his "shoulder" and felt much better so when I looked at the calendar and realized that going home early wasn't going to happen it was okay. Actually, this was a good thing. It has made me re-commit myself to being a better mom while Dan is gone. I've been slacking the last little bit, and so maybe this was a good thing to go through. After all, there are only three more weeks left, and then Christmas. Three weeks is nothing...I can do anything for three weeks (like my little pep-talk to myself?)! So, needless to say, I'm very very thankful for Dan, and my parents, and my little family, and for my friends. Actually, I'm thankful for the phone too. I called a girl in our ward tonight just to talk about ward stuff and was actually prolonging the conversation to just talk...weird for me...very weird. Anyway, it was nice...until the kids started crying and screaming, but I'm sure that is beside the point (besides the point or beside...hmmm...) Maybe crying is therapeutic after all.

7 comments:

Ma & Pa J. said...

Three weeks means you are half way there. You deserve a good cry. You have earned it...so go ahead! We sure miss you and wish you were here. So glad your parents could visit.

Rorie said...

Big old hugs to you! I thought mom and dad were staying til tomorrow, otherwise I would have called to talk to you today.
Three weeks and not only do you get to be with your hubby again, but you get to see ME!!! And what could be better than that, right? ;P

Loni said...

Sometimes those tears really help, if you don't get a head ache from them.

So glad we could visit. Looking forward to when you are closer. That drive is incredibly long.

michelle said...

I would have a meltdown and cry when Collin was gone on Scout camps. Last year I started writing grateful notes to my kids every night and then I would post them in wierd places to find in the morning. It helped because I started watching for the good they did that day so that I would have something to write at night. Jarom and Chelsea couldn't read, but they loved hearing about themselves!!! Good luck. We love ya.

NicKim Family said...

You are seriously amazing! Oh, and if you want to bring Kember over for an afternoon/morning do it! Lucy would love having a friend over - Please call me when you need a hand - I would be honored to help out!

Andrea said...

And here I had no idea when I talked to you yesterday. Hope the tears helped. I'm sure we'll talk a few times this week!

Kirsten said...

Isn't crying great. I always feel better afterwards. And then there's those memories (and I'm sure more to come) when the kids are both crying and I am too....oh the adventures of Motherhood.