*Warning: Just a bunch of rambling
I can't say that I got much out of church today. Unfortunately I spent a lot of time walking the halls with a very happy baby. Why would I be walking the halls with a happy baby? Don't you normally leave class with angry/sad/upset babies? Yes, normally you do. However...my very tired happy baby was extremely loud. She was making very cute happy sounds, but they were very loud. I will also admit to not really paying much attention to the talks during Sacrament meeting. However, I did learn that a lot of people were more in tune with the Spirit than I was because multiple people brought up and commented about one of the sisters talks. Guess that just goes to show that we need to be prepared...it's not just the speakers responsibility. Look at what I missed out on because I chose not to be prepared.
Dan and I tried out a new Sunday School class today. Dan (and me too) was hesitant to try it because our Gospel Doctrine class has been really really good. But in sacrament the Bishop mentioned this new (to us) class and how it was going to teach ways to help our children combat things like pornography. Since I feel like I can use all the help with this that I possibly can I asked Dan if we could switch classes. This is one subject that completely terrifies me. I'm mostly worried about my boys. Let's face it, porn is everywhere. How can I teach them the right things to do when confronted with it? I have no idea what they will have to go through because I grew up oblivious to these kinds of things. I'm also worried about Kember. Now that she is in school I worry about her friends, and the influence they will have on her. I grew up with great friends...and for me, that made all the difference. She went to a friends house the other day, and while I'm thrilled that she has a friend (and that the friend lives fairly close by) I'm just worried about outside influences. I met the mother and she was really friendly, but since I don't know the family I worry. All of a sudden being a mother is terrifying. My children are growing up and I'm worried that I have missed some vital teaching moment that would help them strengthen their testimony of the gospel.
I was reading the conference talk "Become as a Little Child" and she says, "Elder M. Russell Ballard has taught us the importance of the Savior's admonition to 'behold your little one' when he said; 'Notice that He didn't say 'glance at them' or 'casually observe them' or 'occasionally take a look in their general direction.' He said to behold them. " Isn't that a great quotation? That's what I've been working on this week. To really behold my children. There is loads that I need to do to improve, but at least it is comforting to know that these are God's children, and He will help me raise them.